Just dropping in to say I’m technically back. I’m in California and the move went well. At the moment however our house isn’t finished @_@ It was being renovated and the guy doing it decided to up and quit hurr. So now my cousin’s been working on it. As a result most of our furniture can’t by moved in, including my desk, so I can’t set up my normal computer.
.. Hence why I say technically back @_@ I’m typing from my laptop, and well, I’m not fond of its keyboard for long-term use so I’ve mainly only been doing skype calls. Expect an explosion of reblogs when I’m back on my normal comp lawl.
BUT yeah. I’m back and safe and everything’s cool. The ride was pretty long and stressful but the hardest part is over thankfully. Also I currently have a cat trying to hog my lap away from my laptop lol.
So yeah that’s it for now. Got some other stuff I could say but it can wait till I’m back on a keyboard that doesn’t annoy the everloving crap out of me. Peace out folks~
Yeah so I just had a massive geekout all over my aunt and cousin. My cousin mentioned Doctor Who as I was walking in (apparently her daughter’s a massive fan) and I went into a MASSIVE ramble/spasm about today being the 50’th anniversary AND HOW I’M GOING TO MISS TODAY’S EPISODE AUGHAUGHAUGH
Typing this from my laptop. The move is now in progress and my house is halfway packed up. I’ll be back in a few days, wish me luck guys @_@
It’s starting to get down to the home stretch with this move. Barring any complications, I’ll be leaving for California come Saturday.
Welp, time to have another good long cry
this will never not be funny.
I laughed way harder at this than I should have and confused the fuck out of my mom
Fuck this post
Fuck this post so much.
You want a “Why not?”
How about the way your best friend’s older sister will throw up by the side of the road because she’s crying so hard
How about the way your best friend will sob for weeks in her showers, in her bedroom, in the bathroom at school
How about the way your mother will cry every time she looks at herself in the mirror and pictures herself bringing you home
How about the way your father’s eyes will NEVER stop mirroring the image of your hanging body
How about the way your boyfriend will sit in his room in silence, unable to eat or sleep, or even to fucking shower, because why would he want to continue without you
How about the way the girl who called you a brother will start crying every time she sees your parents
How about the way your family will sit in your house after the funeral looking blankly at one another, because god knows they can’t find a fucking thing to say that doesn’t just float through the air where you should be walking
How about the way your sister will wake up every morning and see your door and convince herself that you could still be there, just sleeping in your bed
How about the way your ex girlfriend will come over and pull your clothes from the drawers and cry while she holds them desperately to her face to breathe in what’s left of you
Don’t you dare tell me it won’t change things
There may be stars in the sky and wind in the air and sun in the clouds
But without you we do not want them
Don’t you dare be selfish enough to believe you aren’t important to us
So fuck this post
and fuck this romanticism of suicide
and fuck you for leaving my sister to cry in her room when she thinks nobody can hear
Reblogging because yes, fuck this post.
i agree with everything in this post, minus the selfish part.
People who commit suicide are NOT selfish.
They’re in so much pain that it literally blinds them to how important they really are.
They aren’t selfish. It’s not their choice to be in pain. No one wants to be in pain, especially the crushing amount of pain you have to be in to want to commit suicide
If you are thinking about killing yourself and can’t get it out of your head, then please consider calling 1-800-273-TALK if in the USA. You have done nothing wrong and they won’t tell you that you have nor will they call the authorities.
You should know that you are not alone and there are people who have come out on the other side here to listen.
Reblogging this for the replies. Because everyone who might be contemplating suicide needs to be reminded of how much of an impact they have on people. When you’re in so much pain it feels as though death is the only way out it’s easy to forget how much pain you would end up leaving.